Work reflection

I have been working for years. But I did not feel better and better.

Why?

I have been working in my current company for more than 8 years. This company was a dream place for working, but not any more. And it would take much for me to go away. Not because how senior I am but I have a little got used to its pace. Maybe I should not use a little here.

Big company has profound policy in any corner. But its frame is more sterotyped and less liveness. Sometimes you may felt smothering.

But I have adapted it for a little long. I have transferred more than 3 job roles, one role not for more than 2 years. This makes me not an expert in any fields. I think this is the point. Even now in my role, I have to learn many things. Sometimes I even can not remember what is my role now. There are so many thing to learn. I often feel that time is short.

When I want to just leave this company, I have to learn more to update my knowlege base for a new job role. This looks some ridiculous. But it’s the real condition now of my own. How do you like your job? For me, I am not sure. Someone says if you like your job so much you will never feel tired and you can make great things out of it. But I don’t know. I choose this as my career because I think I can make my living with it? No, I am inspired by some great stories that I read before. But now I am struggling in the living level. Absurb, ah? Learn to learn and learn to change. I guess it is time.